Circle

What's a circle means? one curve line that stick both edge together and it looks like never going to end by turning around, around and around... it's driving mi dizzy @@'' For sure, mostly it won't stop since it needs each small dot of that line to help each other for turning continuously...
Bad thing is i feel like i am stopping, cracking and spoiling the perfect circle...

What am i? an idiot? with the 'hopeless' word that stung mi yesterday makes mi think of it... the point is, i don't date, i don't have any money, i don't do well in my study nor my work and I AM SUCKS... the only thing i have here is a stupid sicking human body LMAO... still standing... uncertainly without coincidence...

What can i say? recently sounds like an angel drop by to mi... singing and shot an arrow right through my heart... i realized but i'm emo... =+='' losing it just like a child lost his blanket...

What the fuck... missing my home... feel like im leaving someone else's life... the smile, the annoying, the accompaniment and the waiting for some one to pull his head out off the damn deep hole... i emo-ing and stop by to spoil the circle, the cycle and defeated...

What to do with the damaged non-working/active undying body... tomorrow will it be as new? today is not my day... and do circles will renew after cycled it?

Desperate

Yaww~ its been centuries for mi to click 'mick-world.blogspot.com' lolz... what im doing recently than updating my blog? It is running through a long long story... if i going to post it here, I'm gonna become the world's biggest problems worrier LMAO...

Since no one will visit on this stupid nonsense and annoying blog, so i wouldn't wish or willing to keep secrets away from here cause I'm the only one will read here... pathetic am i? haha

So~ i would like to tell myself that I have a sick inside mi (forgot the name of my sick, post here as soon i get the body test report)... as i remember what docts said it cause by a genetic system in my body and most properly is my family tradition SICK... daMN... At the first blood test, i would believe that it can be so serious about killing a human being without any viruses inside the body...

Research, research,research and research... woot~ it is that this kind of unbelievable stupid genetic blood can cause some one dead... DAmn again... there was over hundreds of people in this country died unexpectedly by this cause...

What can we do? lets see... docts told mi that if I am able to get fat or growing something like that, I i can possibly handle the blood system in my body; thats means i can recover~ yay~ Meanwhile, if i am not.... = die... lolz

Eating a lot, exercise some, health care and inserting a lot of nutrient in to my stomach... my body contains a lot of nutrition huh? NAH... my blood still fighting back and lost every of them... sometimes, i just thinking that why would my body wana destroy my own build? and why are we blaming those who betray their own kind?...
Actually, what I think is that is their own behavior, sometimes each is unable to control their behavior, they survive in this world is cause of their habits... if not they would rather than they do not existed in this world... we cant blame evil all the times, their own mind creates the willing to destroy controlling them to do it for own survival...

Before this, i keep asking myself the same question everyday, why is evil exist here to make everyone dislike, suffer and unhappy... why cant they considering others feelings? selfishness?
questions with unknown answers drawing mi crazy... i just want a simple happy life. thats all...

aww~ my sickness is making mi fainted recently and constantly I get tired about in three or four hours easily perday... this cause I am a bad one now... think about it, my buddy always waiting for mi to have time with him... everyone hates waiting... Well, I the one cause people waiting for mi while I'm waiting for my body to recover and gain the energy to response... I'm making everyone SICK of mi by waiting mi all the time and I'm SICK of myself...

May be they just don't believe about my sickness, may be they though I'm joking around and creating a barrier between us... starting now I'm not gonna say about my sick anymore since they don't believe it and think whatever they wana think about mi... GO TO HELL, It's not my fault!

Anyway... I'm used to be solo now... do whatever i can to survive in this sucks world, won't give up even at my last breath and avoiding from those asshole that wouldn't know and understanding mi!!

PS. I do what ever I can do dude and I done my best for you all... I'm suffering too... thinks its comfortable with a farking sick inside? grateful for it... its not my fault...

Orchestra

New semester had started and its my new beginning for a brand new day. Guess what? In this new semester, i am taking a subject- Music Appreciation... lolz how come in the course of Advertising does have to learn music? or may be my college is trying to teach useless subjects and earn profits from us? May be...

Somehow, in this music subject i found its kind a special and exploring although it doesn't related to my Advertising thing anyway lolz coz there is no such thing of music in a piece of paper to advertise or promote to everyone... coz a paper won't sing... lolz is never going to make a sound unless you tear it.

but then studying this subject, i was compulsory to attend a chamber orchestra since there is an assignment needs it's report and tickets to finish it.

1st of all i though its kind a wasting time because we need to go there prepared with formally look and watch people playing music instruments front stage lolz may be is because i not really love watching concert... but somehow, i feel exited, i never been an orchestra before haha

Every time i just heard xiao yu said that her sis always presented on music instruments and i watched the video before. Was thinking to find a day and went for her sis orchestra with her but it doesn't happen and may be it won't happening i think haha

Dress UP & Prepare!

business guys... haha look at two of them!
one with nerd style and one with spiky hot
one with mature look and one with youngster look
but both my buddies also ^^

Outside the Hall

felt kind a comfort~
with those yellow lights are on.
passion atmosphere

Of cause, cameras and hand phones are not being allowed to on in and during the orchestra. So i miss to snap photos inside the hall...

on your left, my best brother Fatt ^^
and david is on your right side.

Three buddies forever!
on one pillow!
haha

Princess~
Yuki from left, Cindy and Pearly ^^
they look gorgeous that day.
but i still don't know why Cindy holding the camera for... haha

cute~ three of them haha

Yea yea! taking picture with the musicians, wee~
the left musician is a bassoon player
& the right is a clarinet player

At the first, i found out that its nonsense to go and watch orchestra; it changed when i get into the hall... i can feel the passion atmosphere in it, its classical and i can feel the old times people watch operas in the novel i read 'Phantom of The Opera'. haha

the music start! i don't know how to express those comfort when you listen to it, it brings poping and peace, so do as cute polyphonics haha pretty impressive~

While i'm listening to it, my mind rests without stress... it reminds mi the phrase in 'Secret' movie act by Jay-'listen to music, so that you won't think so much nonsense' said by xiao lun's dad...

Xiao yu... every time i think of you, i will listen to 'Secret' sound tracks; it replays all our memories we ever had, when xiao lun meet xiao yu haha ice cream and red cone~ from the very first to the very end of now, i still miss you and your smile... never think that you can stay beside mi but just wish to see your heart smiles everyday, because it makes mine smiles too ^^

Easy Way

The whole long and bored holiday... I'm getting rusted during it and it may can be the most unhappy holidays i ever had... no, it is the holidays i found the most despairing... haha don't think bout it anymore seen its so interrupting and annoying keep reflexing in my mind...

What I done during this holidays? Guess what? other than day dreaming at home, i get one part time job working at Easy Way in Terminal 1. Its a shop that all customers rest and relaxing meanwhile my job is to shake some milk tea to serve them ^^ any orders?

getting started! preparing all our tools every morning.
look! all ingredients are in Chinese, how i gonna read them? LOLZ.

The Three Musketeers in Easy Way

HIHI! This guy with his hair cut off on his forehead is called Ka Wai
he look so blurr... was asking him to smile at tat time ish...

Peace~ this is Kenny! greatest worker in Easy Way at all...
hes doing things perfect, fast and hes cute ^^ isn't he? haha
With him, we could attract lots of customers and its true, seen hes so attractive LOLZ

and so Mick de noodle is here... shake shake shake the shaker for what?
its empty inside... nonsense post...

Milk shake

the 1st ingredient i recognize-chocolate.
haha its the most famous drink chocolate milk shake and chocolate ice blended.
best selling in our shop neh! u can see all the powder and scratches around it because we keep on drop it and hit it on the table...

Chocolate milk shake~ it smells great tea through your nose,
it tastes sweet in your mouth and its smooth when it go through your tongue right straight to your throat. It just... feels great! ^^

Boss
our sleeping beauty, waiting for the 3 princes in the shop to kiss her wake up.

POP! she awake, guess who the one who kissed her?
answer: her mom. lolz


Kenny & Mick- friends since secondary school, our schools are totally far and different but we met also; its fortune. We both look alike and everyone is saying that... the best friend of mine that is active and playful as mi-naughty. LOL

look how many cups we done ^^ 318 neh!

Although its exhausted but its worth working with friends together, all day long playing around haha

Looking forward for new hopes, feels great at what we've done and never look back.
thats our life, its easy way ^^

The days ever since you slip away

Now waking up is hard to do, sleeping is impossible too, everything reminding mi of you, what can i do?... i see u look so nice from here, pity i can't see it clear... while you standing there, it disappears...

I'm lying on the bed in an empty room, in my head all feels the same; like the days you had left, it still lingers on my breathe... and the dampness of tears that left, that stains where you had wept...

I mistaking everything up... after the memories we cleaning up and since every time we meeting up because we are not close enough... oftenly we playing gik guess between us, misunderstanding are so much, these days are getting rough, its harder everyday...

Everyday with every words whispered we get more far away; the distance between us makes it so hard to say; but be honest please, it hurts but it may be the only way. Tell mi babe, whatever you feels and try to say...

I apologize that I had hurt you before coz when you suffer, I suffer more… it can be the most hurt inside you, you said. Very and definitely so sorry of it…I believe there is no other ways, decision or actions to make it right anymore… sorry… for making you disappointed of mi...

Many things just penetrate right through us so suddenly... it is so hard to see and every time I wish is only to make you happy! no mather what it takes or where it is; it still all the same, its my everything to cheers you up! Happe always ^^

Happe Valentine's Day~

Valentine's Day ^^ a day for all those exhausted working friends sharing love each friendships and for those lovers in relationship to have a sweetest anniversary together every year, most of it nowadays are for lovers to be together happily on that day^^ try to make something useful on that day, i make my present for a girl that i ever try my best to appreciate, to stay close, to care, to worry.... everything and all them are in one point, to love.

Before

After

The present i had make and decorated for my dearest within my own poem, hope she loves it ^^ Actually well, this is the most unforgettable valentine's day i ever had, im so happy!! Although we spend our time together are running fast but im so glad and happy that day ^^ we spend watching movie together, walking around chit chat and sharing our love, it can be the sweetest day because 'You Are The One' i wana spend with everyday and i love so much the phrase you gave mi- every time to be with you, is my every valentine's day!-the unforgettable valentine's present~

Actually we usually have quarrels and each other will get hurt, just wana let her know "Love Deeply and Passionly, we might get hurt but this is the way for getting each other closer and every sweetness is came out from what we hurt before" i know its unfair, neither for mi nor for you! Even i know be together when you unable to forget the pass, its unfair. but try to use your heart to feels it, nothing is unfair between mi and you. I even know that you wana let the pass gone by and then only start our relationship because you suffering to force yourself to be not you are. Something that im not good in explanation but the one I wana let you know that, as long i love you and you love mi, I trust in you deeply with full believes. i don't want to force you to be or point a gun at your forehead to ask you to be what i wanted to because we have our own habits and behavior, just be yourself, your own space. I'm forcing you just making you suffering; like hanging you on a thread by your neck causing hardly to breath in the air... paining...


Things that cant ever solve, we can make it easy to be; things that cant be easy, just use our heart to face the truth; things thats truth we cant avoid, just tolerance some and thats what each other close to be ^^ Don't be despair or get down! The earth never stop spinning just for you! The time is still traveling! Think wisely, breaking up is not the way to solve any problem! if can, i would like to end up my life to end up every stupid hated problems lolz... Dont avoid anything please... Avoiding doesn't means it can be gone forever, despiting it or hiding in your heart just making yourself getting harder thats what you said to mi before..... so share with mi kay? My door will always opens to you ^^ when your heart is empty, put mi in it and you never going to be alone, i know thats true because you always in my heart...

HaPpy Chinese New Year 2008!

Guess what?! WaLA~ Exam finished! all my suffering in the hell of cell keep pumping my study and now it ends! great great holiday ahead ^^ The 1st common thing for mi going back my home sweet home~

My sweet lovely home with growing green plants... lolz
every spring time i had at my home, full with warmness

A place healing all my wounds and my scratches, my HOME~ Well, everyone does has their own that comfort them flushing away any unpredictable hard-solving problems that stress someone into a insane mini act human being or monster lolz but home could solve everything!
The first step back to my home, i can feel that this is the place i wanted to be, the place that conveys warmness to mi, the place that i belongs to... faithful huh?

Kind a long long track way back home and i never miss the beautiful clouds that
can be seen in layers and layers shines by the sun...

The another reason for mi to come back is for Chinese New Year festival. meeting all my relatives that can't meet oftenly and get my ang pau-s~ haha

Look! cutest ang pau-s i get this year~
was given by my cousin

in the ang pau contains the another small one when i pull it out, cute right?

Meanwhile my dad playing mahjong with my uncles and cousins... its their entertainment in CYN... lolz

wola! my dad wins wahaha im just sitting beside cheering lolz

So im wishing everyone beside mi having the most cheerful Chinese New Year ever ^^ and get lot lots ang pau-s wahaha

reunion is the most important in CNY, remember that.