My heart is crying

for my love family

It drives me desperately

They just don't understand me

My friends who love me

even they can see it clearly

They advised me

not to think so many

but I just can't help it

My heart is still crying

is there anyone else can see through it

and wipe all the tears

to see me happy...

P.S. From the starting of all these I already knew someday this could be happened but I love my mum & my grandma too much so for all these days I just keep holding on just for them.

Love Hate December

December

Hm....

Its a month which

fill in with my Birthday & my sis too

Christmas

Holidays

Celebration of new year! :)

Love December

for so many happy days in it

so many memories we can create

so many cheers we can do

so many love to give and receive!

The best month of the year

for me ^.^

But for me...

Hate December

for so many days I'm alone

so many memories of her reflected

in my mind during each day of December pass by

so many love from her had gone

the broken pieces/fragments of my heart

yet remain the same every year....

The worst month...

P.S. Is there possible somebody could just stay by my ears and whispering... you are not alone December boy~

Met a Psycho Man Today

As what I can say

I met a psycho man today

I was texting with my friend in the morning

She said there's someone behind her following

From the beginning

I don't get what shes mean

After what I've seen

no matter how serious this thing is

I feel like wanna hold her tight

and run away from him

But it end up himself going

after yelling on me

because I questioned him something

Why are you following

after calling the security...

I hope everything he yelled at me was nothing

because I don't want him to spoil my precious thing.

Killing Friends

Hello! my dear blog, here we meet again :) lets pillow talk~ lol wtf yea I know I know, I'm the only one talking here. So! you just sit down quietly and listen ok? haha

How do I has to start this? Hmm... let it begin by today haha short time lol... Well, today in my working office, I can never ever imagine that my colleagues had a fight in the office. It was like 'WTF you guys doing? Can't you both just behave?!' haha feel like bossing around.

Its just begun with a small argument about driving methods. People have their own driving methods, either it is a freaking dangerous way or a damn slow idiot safe driving like the world going to end way lol wtf

no matter how it is, people have their own way of life, if you hate it, just keep in mind or don't get into the driver car anymore and don't pissing around with the driver. But! if driving in a dangerous way, the driver should notice friends are giving advice to safe your damn life yet not to kill your 'Marvelous Speed driving Mood' and thats gonna kill you.

So with these small mini thingy argument, the keep pissing off each other and fight in the office. What I can say, IT BRAINLESS...

People asking around, Mick! you are such a kind and nice person; you never scold or yell at any person in any fiercely way no matter what had happened & how come you have no friends?? Well, the answers lies beyond.

I don't like to see people fight.... No... actually I hate seeing my friends fight! Yea, you all can say I'm a chicken because I always run away when friends fighting. The point is do you think you should stay & join it and enjoy the fight? Bullshit I said.

Why we are called Human? Why we are different? Why we are unique? Why the fucking god want to create us but not as same as the animals? Because God create us Human with big hearts and genius brains. God gave a precious incredible 'LOVE' to us and he want love, joy and peace for humans. So fighting each other same kind is a positive thing?

You know when I saw and notice friends fight each other, the only first thing come to my mind is only IDIOTS who don't use their brains and I'm so disappointed and very very hate their acting! I will hate both sides of them, ignoring them until they know its a stupid thing to do and come back to me. I will always welcome my forgiveness friends :) because I love them.

It is true that we have happiness and unhappiness... and we share them either both love and hate. If we can't share the hate, there are varieties of ways in the world to express it and forget it but not to REVENGE it.

Revenge is a lot way long incorrect. You kill my brother today, I kill your sister tomorrow then you kill me after tomorrow, my son kill you on the another day and keep revenge and revenge and revenge, does it ever feel fed-up? If someone is keep pissing you off or hitting at you, we will defense or scare the devil away. Not killing each same kind...

I always losses friends when a fight comes around because I never agree with anyone of them... and I always told as a chicken... or may be a stupid fella who never help... I has the ability to do it but if I help one side of it, will it getting better?

War.

I hate war... try to tolerance with others

because everyone is not perfect.

War is never a solution; it is an aggravation.

How's Recently

Let's talk about this since my last post here in this blog, it was on the starting of this year,2010. Everything was a tremendous, I was having a maximum happy life with all my besties, my working partners, my family and my single life haha talk about it, it makes me laugh now because everything had changed, into upside down except the single thingy lol wtf.(coz I'm still single)

I had switch 2 jobs from top sales man to cashier to advertising promoter and so far now I'm totally stucked in the Seremban Shopping Complex Management as a Marketing & Advertising fella. Everyday is the same; woke up bathe uniformed like a nerd and siting here right now in a place where I get my papers and numbers done every month so that I could make myself and my family better. Still I don't like the job and people around me in the office. Idiots just won't friends with people that they though they are even more idiots. I can't feel friends in here... ermm... just a little bit from one or two folks haha because they will think about you sometimes when you need them while the others just throw you to the corner and leave you rooting there alone lol wtf.

There is no life here, death, announcing. A walking dead body. I don't feel alive here though and feel like activated as a machine, example its like when you are young, Mummy says, Boy~ insert the coin and the thing will serve you so now go ahead and make it alive!~ *winks* I lied to myself and Yes mummy, its acting pretty good *winks* wtf lol

Seremban, a small town with 10-20 thousand populations, no, I can say 'products'. The weather moderate hot here. I don't feel passionate nor love when I'm out of my home. The place you step-in with a high roof are mostly air-conditioned but there are no tourism places, no clubs, no where to sit start bluffing from 1am here until 10am in the morning. Meanwhile, you feel safe here, doesn't have to tell the reason but yes it is. (because there is nothing here)

My previous place, K.L, a huge city with a lot of highways bind with tall buildings where tons of cars/transports populated more than humans around the streets. Populations - unknown but they are weird, wild, hyperactive, passionate, good looking, mixed haha I like mixed lol wtf no one is way too normal here, they are way too good or way too evil lol wtf. Walking along the streets, huge shopping complex, tall buildings offices with high technology, car shops, delicious restaurants, classy houses and clubs haha the place I went the most lol wtf. Enjoy the word to express here. Half of my grow up life is here, my besties are here. The only reason I travel almost every weekend and stucked in the highways for hours from Seremban to here just because of them, I love them so much! Now everything is screwed up...... :'(

3/4 of the calculations in my heart, love is gone... My besties starts war... they claim it as Mick is one of the victims... 'Nahhhh... he's not important la'. Well, I'm out. Both sides having war and you expect the middle person to be the savior? and when the so called 'savior' stay away of this, he loses all his trusts from both sides. So hell I go.

I lost contacts with my besties... I don't have any close and fun friends here... I having a extremely suck working place... I'm having a financial problems... My relative went into hospital operation and not feeling well now... and I am able to finish a bottle of Scotch in one week alone at home. lol wtf

Is god going to send an angel to me? Or let me finish another bottle of Scotch lesser than a week? lol wtf Oh man... its so challenging! and tired-ing... May be its not crazy as it seems, just wait the time pass by and we'll see for the next upcoming post (hopefully there is next post).

BTW, I listens to some songs and she's quiet good! I love girls with music talented! :)