The days ever since you slip away

Now waking up is hard to do, sleeping is impossible too, everything reminding mi of you, what can i do?... i see u look so nice from here, pity i can't see it clear... while you standing there, it disappears...

I'm lying on the bed in an empty room, in my head all feels the same; like the days you had left, it still lingers on my breathe... and the dampness of tears that left, that stains where you had wept...

I mistaking everything up... after the memories we cleaning up and since every time we meeting up because we are not close enough... oftenly we playing gik guess between us, misunderstanding are so much, these days are getting rough, its harder everyday...

Everyday with every words whispered we get more far away; the distance between us makes it so hard to say; but be honest please, it hurts but it may be the only way. Tell mi babe, whatever you feels and try to say...

I apologize that I had hurt you before coz when you suffer, I suffer more… it can be the most hurt inside you, you said. Very and definitely so sorry of it…I believe there is no other ways, decision or actions to make it right anymore… sorry… for making you disappointed of mi...

Many things just penetrate right through us so suddenly... it is so hard to see and every time I wish is only to make you happy! no mather what it takes or where it is; it still all the same, its my everything to cheers you up! Happe always ^^

Happe Valentine's Day~

Valentine's Day ^^ a day for all those exhausted working friends sharing love each friendships and for those lovers in relationship to have a sweetest anniversary together every year, most of it nowadays are for lovers to be together happily on that day^^ try to make something useful on that day, i make my present for a girl that i ever try my best to appreciate, to stay close, to care, to worry.... everything and all them are in one point, to love.

Before

After

The present i had make and decorated for my dearest within my own poem, hope she loves it ^^ Actually well, this is the most unforgettable valentine's day i ever had, im so happy!! Although we spend our time together are running fast but im so glad and happy that day ^^ we spend watching movie together, walking around chit chat and sharing our love, it can be the sweetest day because 'You Are The One' i wana spend with everyday and i love so much the phrase you gave mi- every time to be with you, is my every valentine's day!-the unforgettable valentine's present~

Actually we usually have quarrels and each other will get hurt, just wana let her know "Love Deeply and Passionly, we might get hurt but this is the way for getting each other closer and every sweetness is came out from what we hurt before" i know its unfair, neither for mi nor for you! Even i know be together when you unable to forget the pass, its unfair. but try to use your heart to feels it, nothing is unfair between mi and you. I even know that you wana let the pass gone by and then only start our relationship because you suffering to force yourself to be not you are. Something that im not good in explanation but the one I wana let you know that, as long i love you and you love mi, I trust in you deeply with full believes. i don't want to force you to be or point a gun at your forehead to ask you to be what i wanted to because we have our own habits and behavior, just be yourself, your own space. I'm forcing you just making you suffering; like hanging you on a thread by your neck causing hardly to breath in the air... paining...


Things that cant ever solve, we can make it easy to be; things that cant be easy, just use our heart to face the truth; things thats truth we cant avoid, just tolerance some and thats what each other close to be ^^ Don't be despair or get down! The earth never stop spinning just for you! The time is still traveling! Think wisely, breaking up is not the way to solve any problem! if can, i would like to end up my life to end up every stupid hated problems lolz... Dont avoid anything please... Avoiding doesn't means it can be gone forever, despiting it or hiding in your heart just making yourself getting harder thats what you said to mi before..... so share with mi kay? My door will always opens to you ^^ when your heart is empty, put mi in it and you never going to be alone, i know thats true because you always in my heart...

HaPpy Chinese New Year 2008!

Guess what?! WaLA~ Exam finished! all my suffering in the hell of cell keep pumping my study and now it ends! great great holiday ahead ^^ The 1st common thing for mi going back my home sweet home~

My sweet lovely home with growing green plants... lolz
every spring time i had at my home, full with warmness

A place healing all my wounds and my scratches, my HOME~ Well, everyone does has their own that comfort them flushing away any unpredictable hard-solving problems that stress someone into a insane mini act human being or monster lolz but home could solve everything!
The first step back to my home, i can feel that this is the place i wanted to be, the place that conveys warmness to mi, the place that i belongs to... faithful huh?

Kind a long long track way back home and i never miss the beautiful clouds that
can be seen in layers and layers shines by the sun...

The another reason for mi to come back is for Chinese New Year festival. meeting all my relatives that can't meet oftenly and get my ang pau-s~ haha

Look! cutest ang pau-s i get this year~
was given by my cousin

in the ang pau contains the another small one when i pull it out, cute right?

Meanwhile my dad playing mahjong with my uncles and cousins... its their entertainment in CYN... lolz

wola! my dad wins wahaha im just sitting beside cheering lolz

So im wishing everyone beside mi having the most cheerful Chinese New Year ever ^^ and get lot lots ang pau-s wahaha

reunion is the most important in CNY, remember that.